Last night was my weekly coaching check in. I’m not doing so well
turning off the computer, and I have to go back and remember why I want to in the first place, but in other areas, like self-care, I’m elated!
The big step I’m working on this week is to finish off old projects; any that are holding space in my consciousness and stopping me from moving forward with full speed.
These could include:
- Remove clothes in my closet that don’t fit anymore. (Luckily I’ve done that step).
- Resolve communications that have been left hanging – hurtful words or unsaid things. This doesn’t mean I must confront the other person, but I must come to a place inside myself where I no longer have any energy, positive or negative around the issue.
- File away old papers that are laying around my office. Ugh.
- Complete a specific project I’ve had on my desk for five years.Five years! Ouch. This is a project that I keep coming back to, but really have no energy to finish. I was paid some good money for it, and I’ve completed the work that equals the pay, but there is months to go to finish it. The difficult part for me is admitting that I no longer want to do the project. Realizing I don’t really have the expertise to finish it. I’m scared of letting the other person down.
I’m going today to resolve this. End it. Give him the box full of project and say Goodbye.
In my heart I’m not sure it will happen. I’m not resolved yet.
Wish me luck.
[...] Today, when contemplating my resistance to letting go of my project, [...]
Completing a project and completing a process are perhaps sometimes two different things. By resolving the situation (in this case returning with grace what you have no energy, interest or expertise for), you honor yourself and the other person and free you both. Your deep integrity will support you. I wish you well.
[...] I packed up my box and headed out into the big city to let go of my project. This might seem like an ordinary task, but I’d been holding on to this project for years and [...]